I Miss Home

It's true. I mean yes, I am having such a blast here, but sometimes, I feel like I wouldn't want to be anywhere else but home sweet home. It would be nice to sit down and have a chat with my mom right now. I feel so conflicted now, it seems like the only person I could talk to is her. I seriously don't know what to do anymore. I don't want to talk over Skype. Cause I am sure she'd cry. And when she does, I will too. I mean it's nothing serious, its just a life chat with my dear mom. I usually had these sessions with her over afternoon tea back home regularly and I feel extremely lucky that I can do that and talk to my mom just like any other friend. But now, it seems like Skype talks are just too short to fit in weeks of updates, hence I don't get to talk about much. And Skype is NOT the same OK. Yes it does help, but I feel like we are still separated by vast oceans and land. I know I am a strong person, but a person is only so strong. I am not sure why I feel so down now. I think it's just the semester that's wearing me off. I am extremely demotivated now. Oh well, it's just 3 more weeks. Then off to WI. At least I can call that home.

21

I feel like time goes by way to fast now. It seemed like it was only yesterday that I celebrated my 20th birthday and my dad's 51st at Bubba Gump Shrimp. Today I turn 21. This year's celebration will be drastically different though. I will be on my own this year. Family is half way around the world and the nostalgia is kicking in. No, there won't be a nice dinner where I can order anything I would like or will there be any birthday presents from my parents, sis and bro-in-law and yeah well, family. But I guess that is life. I am rather sad that I am not there (Malaysia) to celebrate my 21st birthday with them but at least I have my friends here. I have my 'family' of my own. But still, its not the same but I'm OK with that.

There are so many things I should be thankful for. In my short 21 years of life, I have lived in 3 different countries (3 different places in the USA, England and of course, home which I call Malaysia), traveled to over 40 different countries (and counting), met so many amazing people (many more to come of course), and I have to say I have been enjoying my life. I am blessed with the most amazing friends in the world, and an even more amazing family. What more can I ask for? 

So, here's to life. Here's to growing up. Here's to being more mature. Here's to more experiences to come. Here's to the year ahead.

:)

The Story So Far...

1. I realized that time moves extremely fast when you're having fun. It seems like only yesterday since I left home and today marks the 3rd month of my stay here in MN. I am having a blast here, and I have met so many different and great people along the way. I have to admit though, I do not really know many people from my country here. I have no idea why but it almost seems like they want nothing to do with me. Oh well, I have made my group of friends already so I don't mind.

2. I have surprised myself countless times since my stay here. Before I left I was a nervous wreck. I doubted myself in EVERYTHING. But I proved myself wrong when I decided to take all the necessary (and possible) risks I could. I purposely came here without contacting any of the Malaysians prior because I wanted to find the place I would call home myself. I want to be independent. If I did contact them (an option most of the Malaysians here do) I perhaps wouldn't have discovered my full potential. Yes it is a safe way to be with Malaysians, but I did not travel 9000 miles away from home to hang out or chill with my buddies from...Malaysia. Hence, most of my friends are Americans. Not to brag here, but seriously it all worked out in the end. I am extremely happy here now and I have 'family' of my own here already. If you guys happen to be reading this, you know who you are. :)

3. Classes are going. Yes they are. Albeit the classes being 900 times harder than they were back home, I am still hanging on. I do update my parents in everything (yes I still give them updates on my quiz & test scores) and they are actually OK with it. I mean they tell me to keep it up, be determined and in the end God will prevail. At one point I wanted to give up, but a talk from mom proved to be what I really needed. After that, I was more determined than ever.

4. I do miss my family. Despite me having a great time here, there are those moments (sometimes at the worst possible time) that I get that sense of nostalgia where I am enjoying the great times I had with my family, not to forget, the scrumptious home-cooked meals my mom made. I really miss her sup tulang. Ahh...her sup tulang. Oh and not to mention her rendang, her CHICKEN RICE, her EVERYTHING SHE COOKS! Wow, I never realized I missed Malaysian food this much. But hey I am proving to be a good cook here. Made myself a couple of delicious meals before and I have many more months of discovering my cooking skills. I cannot wait to get back and make my family a dish instead. Besides the food, I miss the cats. Yes I do.

5. This morning during our Skype session with the family back home, I received great news after great news after great news. Life is good. Life is looking up. I am happy. I am content. Thank you God. :)

Its Time

It's at that point of time where I am starting to get lazy and slack off little by little. This is no good. I mean like really I want to get through this semester and hopefully do well in all my classes and this happens. It seems like ever single class I go to are just dull and uninteresting and I just end up not paying as much attention to what is on the white board (as opposed to writing down and actually understanding what is being written). Hopefully after my (much needed) Thanksgiving break (Nebraska here I come!), I will be more determined and end the semester on a high note.

:)

Random Post

I want this bike so bad. It looks...breathtaking. Wow. Wow. Wow.



Ps// sorry for my lack of posts, I've been really busy here. Will make a big post soon alright! Have a good day guys!

:)