Positive Outlook

I have been through quite a lot in the past I must say. There were good times and there were bad times. Yes, we are talking about life people. Though I try my best to be happy and cheerful, I do get sad and 'depressed' at times. However, I am quite fed up with all this getting-hit-hard-and-getting-sad/depressed part of my life. I mean, sometimes I stress myself up too much. I try my best to treat people nicely but sometimes I get hurt in the end. Also at times when I work my arse off on something and it doesn't work out, it too, hurts me A LOT. After a few weeks of recieving perhaps the worst ever test results in my life, I decided, life has to go on.

I cannot be sad about one thing that has passed. After a lot of support from friends, particularly Justine and Andre (thank you so much!), I am so over the test results and the fire in me to work harder smarter next time has ignited. I have learned that life doesn't revolve around the one test I did badly. So, I cannot fret over it, but instead, I must move on with life. OK, I might have been very depressed at the time but seriously, why was I that way? Reflecting back on that day, I remember being uber-depressed and that I shut everyone out. I was furious at everyone and I got mad for the tiniest of things. Why did I flow my anger to others? If fact, why did I get depressed in the first place? That wasn't the end of the line for me. That was just one test and what is that going to prove? Nothing, really. So, I decided that I need to change.

Hence, I am trying to have this positive outlook on life from now on. To me, I think it is OK to fret about things, but don't drag it to days and days until it affects me badly. Like my span of getting mad/angry or whatever you wanna call it is 10 minutes tops. You see, we have to learn to let go at times, in other terms, GROW UP! As we know life isn't always fair, we can't have it all. So try it out. Too hard? Take 3 deep breaths to calm down. Then perhaps drink a cup of tea/coffee (depends on what your preference is; mine would definitely be raspberry tea!) or whatever you like. Reflect on what might you have done wrong/what triggered your anger over your beverage. After this, if you think it isn't worth your precious time (yes time is limited people!) to dwell over, just let it go and move on life. Trust me, you will learn to be more mature and positive this way. Try it. It's working for me so far.



Mood: Extremely happy

Congratulations, sis

I have to be really sorry to my readers (if any) out there for not updating my blog for centuries long. You see, it is not that I didn't want to, I just couldn't find the time. I was so busy juggling college, friends, studying and a very big family event that I shall tell of soon. Lets get started now shall we? Basically, in the past weeks from my previous post to present...


1. I saved a friend from committing social suicide. You see, this friend of mine had a mission. The mission? Buy a new folder/file/document manager thingy. And so, we headed off to this mall with another friend of mine who is also her cousin to catch The Ugly Truth, and later search for the folder thingy. The movie was great, but I don't really know how my friend handled all the dirty jokes though. Moving on, after the movie, the folder thingy search was on. So we headed to MPH and headed to the stationary isle. She spotted the folders and ta-daa, the first thing that caught her eye was this very un-stylish 'Stylish' folder. Me and her cousin burst out laughing. I can remember trying to gasp for air. A folder with a handle? This style is so 10 years ago. I might be acceptable if one was in primary school, but college? Aiyayayaya. After a few minutes of mocking her (sorry!), we helped search for a perfect folder, and she settled for a more age-appropriate pink folder (nice!).


2. I had my dose of Starbucks. This comes after the month of Ramadhan. Since I couldn't have joined my friends for a Frappuccino, I just had to. So, when Eid arrived, I straight away suggested we (my friends and I) go to Starbucks and perhaps catch a movie. Of course the movie just fell through and we ended up spending the whole evening in Starbucks. It was great though to hang out with good friends and have some laughs.


3. I screamed because I saw a Hummer. OK, OK, don't get me wrong here, I know it is just a Hummer. But this was in front of my house. Although I may seem like the weirdo, Hummers in Malaysia are seriously rare. Just like the red Maserati GT I saw while picking my sister up from school, or the orange Lamborghini that is parked in the driveway of a resident of my neighbourhood. Exotic cars, especially Maserati's just takes my breath away. Explains my e-mail you know. If you didn't, so now you do. But again, they are just cars. I must get over my obsession.


4. My sister got married. This was the big family event I was talking about. Yes, I know, I have a brother-in-law now, but its cool. He's quite a cool and nice guy and we do get along quite well. So I have to congratulate my sister and 'brother'. I hope you two have a long and successful marriage. The picture above is the 'mini pelamin' set up inside my house during the night of the 'nikah' (when the wedding vows were taken). It was a simple one but beautiful I must say. The one at the hall where the reception was held was more elaborate but I have no pictures of that yet as the 4 cameramen are still editing the photos. The wedding was such a big thing for my family and thank God that it was fun and guests were aplenty. My parents couldn't have been more happier for the turn out. There were 1500 people on the guest list but I reckon many more came. Also, a couple of friends of mine who were to show up for the wedding ran late. But, eventually they still came, and that's what mattered the most. On behalf of my family, thanks for all who made it to the wedding. We really appreciate it.

The one and only photo I have with me now. Some will be uploaded soon. Notice the friend in the 'Negaraku' stance.

I think this is all I will update you guys for now. My brain has jammed and I am super tired. Until the next update! Bye!

Mood: Exhausted

Se7en

Finally I have time to update this blog. Don't worry it's not dead yet! The past couple of weeks have been filled with ups and downs but all in all they were great. So here it goes.

1. I found out that what we have been doing thus far for calculus has been all about integrating and differentiating. I live differentiating but integrating is quite a pain. Take for example chapter 8. That totally crushed my spirit for calculus. I'm sure my friends noticed but I couldn't help it. It was totally 'traumatizing' to not know how to do oh-so-many questions in one shot! But I got through that. And I have to give a VERY BIG THANK YOU to the 'Guru' and the 'Mahaguru' for all their help. Without them, I wouldn't be where I am with calculus right now. So shall I get back to calculus exercises now? I'd rather blog now thank you.

2. This week has been a little stressful for me. An as usual when I get tense I get all crazy and hyper. Faiz + hyper = NO GOOD.

3. Yesterday while writing a little something something for a friend, I got the shock of my life. A cockroach came charging at me with all its might. I jumped out of the chair. While this was happening, Justine picked up a tissue and killed the disgusting thing. I have now become the laughing stock of my friends. Sigh.

4. "Hey Faiz, you remind me of Chuck Bass from Gossip Girl in a way," were the words uttered from a friend a few days ago. I was quite shocked. Not too long ago another friend told me a similar thing. And I have also gotten it from a couple other friends. What on earth? How can this be? I am taking this as a, err... compliment?

Source: Boys Like Girls

5. I discovered today while surfing the net that cool looking tees like above are only $5. I was like, WHAT?! $5?! That is crazy cheap. I am definitely going to get a lot of band tees when I get to the US. Can't wait!

6. I sent out my sister's wedding invitation to my friends today. Just before you could say anything, they were discussing about what to wear. I was like, "as long as you don't go nude!" Heh.

7. I recently reconnected with a friend this week. It was such a relief he remembered me. Gosh, I miss those days in New Berlin. Speaking of New Berlin, it is NOT in Germany. Instead, it is in the Dairy State of the USA Wisconsin. Now that I just had to bring that up, I miss Wisconsin cheese.

Life has been amazing so far. Blessed with amazing parents, wonderful siblings, and awesome friends, what could go wrong? Well, not that I'm complaining anyway.

Mood: Sleepy

Cuddles

That's what I am gonna name the dog in the video below. Watch it, the pup is adorable! Twas a video I found on YouTube. Gosh that site is addictive yes?

Anyway, this week has been great. I had not procrastinated on calculus homework like I used to and it's a great feeling I suppose. So, I can think of more important things like revising, and ehem ehem, television. I have no idea why but I am slowly becoming a TV addict. I limit myself to at least an hour a night though (I know, what a loser). Well, I have not much to say anymore. Enjoy the video!



Mood: Exhausted

Boys Like Girls

Oh, I'm quite a fan of them, even before they hit mainstream. Their music is simply fantastic and seeing them live at MTVWS last 15th August was a dream come true. So, after all the wait, MTVWS is finally airing tonight on MTV Asia at approximately 9 PM Malaysian time. I can't wait! I would love to watch it again, this time on TV. And while browsing through YouTube, guess what I found? Watch the video. It's HILARIOUS! But I gotta say kudos to Martin and Paul for trying. They aren't too bad at it either!



Mood: Happy

Time After Time

That song is timeless. Random thought there. Well, as I sit here in this computer chair, I wonder, why on earth did I spend almost the whole day online? That question remains to be answered. Time sure does fly when you go 'window shopping' or blog surfing. There is this one car blog I like in particular. I can spend hours just reading about what I love, cars (among other things, of course). Today, I did just that.

After quite an unstable week, today proved to be much better. However, my spirit in doing calculus or the physics homework given depleted as soon as I arrived home. After not being able to go online for as far as I can remember (excluding last night's post), I just had to go online. The computer was literally 'calling' for me. And that was when a few minutes turned into hours which later, turned into most of the day today. I feel like I wasted a lot of precious time today. When others are struggling by using their brains attempting the homework and assignments, I just sat here all day doing nothing that would benefit my life whatsoever. And so I have reached a conclusion, I must stay away from the computer during weekdays. I will try this out for the rest of the week and hopefully I will succeed. I need to set my priorities straight here, and going online is perhaps not even on the list.

I have yet again procrastinated on doing any work and so I will be burdened with the absurd amount of calculus work tomorrow plus the other homework I received today. I can't say I am too happy but I realize the only person to blame is myself. But oh well, time cannot go backwards and plus there is no use in regretting the past or thinking too much about it. I also have to think about tomorrow and how I shall spend my 4 hours of break (my psychology class is cancelled for the week) before physics lab. Perhaps I shall do my homework? I don't know. Only time would tell. Oh, and sorry for such a random post.

Mood: Content

Pathetic

Something has been bugging me lately. I can't tell what it is honestly. I can't tell if its calculus or if it's the drama that revolves around my everyday life. Hopefully it is just the calculus. So much has happened this week that I can't seem to grasp it yet. I may be all smiles in public but deep down, not even I can tell how on earth I feel. This whole week has been bland so far. Although feeling 100% better than I did last week (physically), I feel even worse now (mentally). I guess my brain is just shutting down. It does not want to accept anymore drama, or perhaps effing hard calculus questions. The departure of a great friend to the States' makes me that much more sad, although I am utmost happy for him. If you want to tell me "I know how you feel," to make me feel better, save it. Because truth be told YOU HAVE NO IDEA. So save your energy by not typing out all your sympathy comments or how I call it pathetic comments and do make this world a better place to live in. I don't need em'. Makes me feel more pathetic that I already feel.
Thank you.

Mood: Not good.